Just let is happen, woosa

Today is the start if a crazy week and I am so not ready! I have a large event going on this weekend and some how I have bitten off much of the project. I have noticed that today I have been super negative about the project and even those involved because it is stressing me out. In order to keep my cool I need to just let it go and let it happen! I know that stressing isn't going to help, so I have decided to let it go and say wosa!

Here is to am amazing week!

Just say no

Today's resolution is to just say no....to using my credit cards. Today I was going threw my Victoria secret magazine and there were lots if things I wanted from the magazine. I even went online and started to add things to my checkout bag. However before I clicked check out I decided against my actions. I thought I cannot continue to add debt to my credit cards, I pay every month and than use the same money if not more to buy new things, it is just not smart or working. So I have hidden my credit cards ( yes there is way more than one or two) in a place I will forget and never look bsck.

No more credit card spending, no more!

Eating out

Today I had the best time out to dinner with some friends from work. We went to this great little restaurant in the village and it was amazing. I really loved the environment, the food and especially the company. I am pretty sure i have just meet my favorite almost one year old and he is too die for adorable. However the cuteness off my new best baby friend is not the point of my blog. The point of todays resolution is to only go out to eat once a week. For money and diet reason I have decided I will only eat out once a week, this will be my treat time. This includes resturants, take out and fast food ( however I an cutting fast food out completely).

I really think this will be a great resolution for my bank account, it is going to save me lots of silly money that I spend. Maybe it will also save me lots f wasted calories and I will be albe to take the money I spend to buy me new clothes because of the pounds I lost!

Either way I loved hanging out with the people I went to dinner with tonight, they are my kind of people and make me laugh!

Join the 300 Club

So my women on weights trainer proposed this stupendous idea to our class on Tuesday, an idea that I completely ignored until she asked me if I was going to be doing it today. She wants all of us to join the 300 club, this means we do 300 abdominal works a day.  These 300 works can range from crunches, sit ups, bicycles, leg ups, trench crunchs, the buso and more!! I laughed at first and thought PLEASE, me, I hate the idea of even doing the 30 I have to do in the morning with her...but then she got me thinking.  It would benefit me to actually use this personal time I am getting with a trainer and start doing something other then complain.  I also think if I do 300 ab works may I'll find those long lost abs. 

So here is my public promise to my loyal three followers, my God, facebook and myself....I, Amanda Michele Davis, do solemnly swear to do 300 abdominal works a day.  I will logs these works in a notebook that I use to use to track my spending (don't worry I have a new bills book for that) and will hopefully be seeing results in the future (i.e. I'd like to see some results by like April).  I mean I don't want creepy abs, like Mike the Situation, but I would sure love to get rid of this muffin top and beer belly! 

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No I would not like fries with that!!!!

Ug after a horrible night of eating Raising canes, which is a place i SWORE i wont eat at again, I have decided ONCE AND FOREALL i will NO LONGER eat fried food, ever again!!!! Now sure this means I will have to give up my lovely chicken fingers, my favorite nuggets from chic-a-fil-a, and my hot boneless wings from BWWW, but if it will give me ten more years of life I will do it!

I will no longer indulge in my moms amazing schnitzels and I will resit with every temptation my love for coconut shrimp, because they are just holding me back from enjoying things like applies and lettuce.  I also notice that after eating this delicious but CRAP food I feel sluggish and nonmotivated. 

Starting today my friends I will no longer want fries with anything because anything friend is NOT in my diet!!!!

Thank you and good day!

Floss between the gums!

PSA:  I know my blogs are posting a day late, but my compute at home is causing me to not be able to complete them meaning I will have to write on another *work cough*computer.  

Anyways, tonight while brushing my teeth I was thinking about how I really need to floss more!  I know that flossing is really good for the teeth but also for the body.  I read somewhere that flossing can help detain the common cold and the bacteria that is formed from flossing can get rid of many different mouth things!  I also think that flossing will help me with my pearly white smile and keep that gunk out of my teeth.  I have a retainer on my lower teeth on the inside and I notice that it gets gunkified if I don't floss regularly, and even though i brush my teeth like three times a day I still need that extra piece of thread!!! so here is to healthy gums, to flossing the pretty chompers of my life and to not having gingivitis. 


PS: the flossing gnomes are for you Christina Michele, I LOVE YOU, the woman who taught me all about loving my teeth!

Follow the creedS

Now I know when you all dread this you thought the creed, like the band(s)? And although I do enjoy one or two creed songs shamelessly that is not what my resolution is about! No no today I am resolving to follow the two creeds that I have vowed. The first creed is the Nicean Creed, a passage I say every Sunday with my Parrish congregation. I know this creed very well every Sunday but on the other days of the week I sometimes forget the words I say I believe. If I say I believe in one god, father almighty but than worship other things like money and possessions am I really believing this? Therefore, I hae decided to reexamine this faithful creed and live by it, because I know longer want to live in hypocrisy.

If you noticed in my resolution title I said creeds, as in, I live by two creeds! Obviously the first is the Niceane and the second is what actually brought up the idea for this resolution. About seven years ago I made a promise to live active, self reliant and trustworthy. I made the promise to be faithful to the ideals of my sorority Alpha Sigma Tau, and even though I no longer repeat this creed out loud every week I still think about the creed and the importance it has on my life. The creed of ast has helped me become a better person and I feel like I need to pay more attention to this creed.

Therefore, I'd have decided to start reminding myself of these creeds and will begin to live by the creeds not just say that I believe in them. I no longer want someone to ask me what I believe but be able to know automatically because of my actions!

It puts the lotion on it's skin..

Today I decided I've had it with the dry skin! My skin itches worse than that one time I caught the zephrihillis (yes my st Leo bitches I went there)! I have like skin scabs on my legs and I can't event shave because it hurts so bad. I really think I am have snake with the scales that are groaning on my legs and arms. So what is the solution to this reptile weather reaction, LOTION!

I have decicided that from now on I will begin putting lotion on my body in hopes to not become a reptile. This cold weather is killing me! My lips are so chapped, my hands are so dry and I am pretty sure my hair is the only thing I actually like because there is no heat to make it huge. I am so over this cold weather crap OVA it!

I'm late I'm late for a very important date

I know that one can't change everything UNOut her but I have decided I need to change this horrible thing of being late all the time.

I have decided today that I will no longer be late for anything, I will be punctually on time. I will make the effort to be at least five minutes early. I really have noticed that when i Am late I make so many excuses and they absolutely serve me NO creed. If anything it hinders my creditability, and cause others to start assuming I will always be late.

So friends and foes take this as my word as God and Buddah are my witness I will no longer be late for any engagement. If I say I will be there by 830am (I.e the time I have to be at church tomorrow) I will actually be there by 825am....because I am no longer late amanda I am punctual and prompt amanda! or at least I am going to try to be!

Fall in love

Today I went and saw the movie Country Strong, first off great movie and I really loved all the characters, but the one key point I got from the movie was the idea of love. In the movie there is a scene where Gwyenth Paltrow tells Leeghton Meester that her biggest advice is to fall in love. She goes on to say that falling in love is the greatest thing anyone can do with their life. Well she got me thinking, I really need to take that advice. It isn't like she was talking about falling in love with a man, but more the idea of falling in love with many different things. Therefore that is what I intend to do. This year I will fall in love and lots!

I plan to try new foods, new ideas and new hobbies. I want to fall in love with music, my faith, movies, dancing, friends, family, my pooch, and maybe this will be the year that i find a man to love. This reminds me of the book eat pray love, where the main character experiences life and learns to love herself and than gains the ability to love others. I also think about a class I took in college called the philosophy of love, this class really focused more on loving oneself and being able to accept the good with the ugly. I have forgotten most of the things I learned or thought I learned in that class, but I'll never forget the idea that before I can love anyone or anything first I must love myself. That is something that the main character in eat pray love had to learn and it is something that the main character in country strong never figured out. It is a really tough but simple lesson, it is something I am working on but know I will never achieve fully, it is like perfect nirvana. It is something that many great people have struggled with, great people like Kurt cobain, Janice Joplin, Elvis Presley, Michael Jackson, marylin Monroe, and more.

Here's to love my friends and foes, to loving life, each other and most importantly, to loving yourself!

Be kinder to my mother

Today I was thinking about my mother and how much I love her more when I am 900 miles away. I about our relationship and the fact that even though I am pretty sure she is crazy I am becoming more and more like her. However, there is nothing wrong with becoming more like my mother, she is an amazing women. My mother would do anything for the people she loves, and since the doctors increased her pail she can actually be considered a sweet lady. She puts up with Christina and my anticts with out a cry and even allows me to bitch and moan at here with minimal cry. So this is why I need to love her more.

I use t be ashamed that my mommy and I were close, especially in college. I think this is half because of the influence of the friends I had in college but also because I wanted independence and her being so involved made me feel less independent and more of a mommy's brat. However, after moving so far away I have realized that I really miss and love my mommy and need to show her my feelings more. I have decided to call my mom more often, send her letters, emails and even visit her more. I don't care if people see me as a mommy's girl, I am a mommy's girl and I love my mommy!

Watch the news

I have decided that today's resolution is to watch the news for at least 30 minutes a day. It can either be CNN, fox news, the evening news, or the eleven o'clock news. I really think that now that I am older it is more responsible of me to know what is going on in the world. I always feel like I am missing things because I only watch Disney and abc family and they usually do not broadcast news! I really enjoy watching the today show but am either at the gym or not awake to watch. I also enjoy the evening news with katie couric, but am either at work or I forget it is on tv because I am watching disney or you guessed it abc family. I guess now I will settle for the the nighttime news or something on one of the news channels.

I really just want to watch the news and know what is going on in the world right than and there, not later threw a friend or facebook. This resolution may depress me a bit since I feel like the news only talks about negative things, but maybe it will give me ideas on what I wish the news would report on and maybe I could start reporting? I could have a sues corner like on glee, but it would be Amanda's corner and I wouldn't be mean!

No tv while trying to go to bed!

Last night I tried to go to sleep and it took me at least an hour to actually concentrate on sleeping.  I am pretty sure the main source of my problem is the fact that I watch my favorite channel *DISNEY* while I am trying to sleep. I put on channel 21 or sometimes 60 (Disney 2) and set my timer to sleep 60, but I usually am watching the channel until my tv goes off leaving me to turn it on again and reset.  I also have noticed that sometime it hinders my sleeping and I wake up with a headache of groggy.

Therefore I will no longer sleep with the tv on.  I will watch what I want but once I have decided that it is time to turn over, off goes the tube! I hope the pooch is okay with this resolution, I know how much he loves falling asleep to the gentle sounds of Fineas and Pherb. 

Stay on Budget

Today, after glorious shopping at the outlets I decided that my resolution today is to stay on budget.  I have been trying very hard to save money because I am sick of living paycheck to paycheck.  I have lots of bills to pay but think that if I just start saving a little I will be able to have money if something serious happens.  However, every time I say I am going to save I don't!  Therefore, starting now I am saving my money that I have budgeted.  I am not going to spend the money on anything, just let it sit in my account and gain interest.  I am also going to start budgeting out how much I need to spend on groceries and than fun.  Unlike the average person I do not need to spend much on Groceries because I have a meal plan with work and can eat at the cafeteria for all my meals if I plan on it, so I really only need to buy food for the pooch and snacks for me.  I really want to start eating at the cafe more often because I know it will save me money and it isn't horrible or unhealthy food, they have some great options there that I know I can eat and save money on.

I think this might be my hardest resolution yet because I LOVE SHOPPING, but I know that if I want a better future for myself I need to watch my spending!

Giving God more attention

Today I have decided to give my attention to the big man upstairs.  Usually I only spend about two-three hours a week showing my affection to my lord and I have noticed recently that I really feel amazing afterward.  So after thinking long and hard I have decided that I will start spending more time reflecting, talking and loving my God.

I think the best place to start increasing this relationship is to start praying more.  I usually only pray when I want something and my assessment of this method is that it doesn't work, maybe instead of praying for God to hear me I should listen more to hear God. 

SO here's to the big man of upstairs, all of my unanswered prayers and the faith I have in knowing that he has a plan for me!

Love the pooch more!

Today I took the pooch to a dachshund meet up were he got to play with other pooches just like him.  To be honest he really didn't play as much as hide behind me and sometime sniff some butts here or there, but that isn't a part of my resolution. 

No my resolution today is to love the pooch more.  When I first got here I did TONS of things with him.  I took him to the dog park, petco and even sometimes I took him to other fun places.  However, as with others things in my life I put work first and forgot about my special trips with the little monster.  So today, after seeing how much fun he seemed to have I decided NO MORE will I continue to ignore such a beautiful and loving pooch.  No more will I let this creature that loves me no matter what be fourth or fifth in my list of responsibilities. 

So today, I promise to take the dog out somewhere at least once a week.  I promise to give him at least 1/3 of my weekend and will no longer only show him attention at night right before we go to bed, but instead actually play with him.  I promise to take him for longer walks, not just around the building but around the campus (maybe not fully around the campus because it is SUPER scary here sometimes).

I really do love him more than anything in the world and I am pretty sure he loves me.  He is my little monster and I am really thinking that he loves me more than I could ever love him.  Pets are really great and I don't know what I would with out my little pooch!

Watching what I put in my pie hole!

Today's after having a horrible day of eating I have decided to return to my planned out eating plan. I mean I pay for help from a nutrition coach but than do not use the help. I know what I should and shouldn't be eating, like I shouldn't be eating raising canes chicken fingers everyday or chikfila, but I could eat a salad or some carrots instead. This is just a resoluton that i really need to keep if I want to decrease my weight and actually put purpose to my workouts and efforts.

Short entry today, I am tired and am still learning to type on the iPad. Loves so much bloggie and boogers!

Time for bed sleepy head

Since I am starting my work out routine at 7:00am and staying regular to these routines I need to get to bed at a regular hour.  I have decided that today's resolution is to begin keeping a nice bed time.  Usually I am hitting the hay at 1:00am, but this will not work if I have to be up, pooched walked, and at the gym at 7:00am.  So I have decided to push up my sleep time to 11:00pm.  This means that I will start going to bed at 10:30pm, because it takes me about 30 mins to fall asleep. I really think this is going to be a tough resolution because of my addiction to late night television *or Hannah Montana at midnight* and my job requirements that sometimes have me staying out till about 10-11pm, therefore I have decided to make a sub-resolution.  If I have a work obligation that is causing me to stay up until 11pm or later I will than try to go to bed earlier the next day.  If that is not possible I will than work at getting to bed asap when I get home.  The goal of this resolution is to get the proper amount of sleep needed to have a healthy and productive tomorrow.

It will be a HUGE work in progress, but I think it will work out well!

Snip snip clip clip

Today I decided my resolution was to start clipping coupons. I went to the grocery store with a friend and she was telling all about the TONS of money she saves. I really need to start doing this, I feel like I am spending way to much money on groceries. I have decided that from now on I will be clipping and cutting every coupon and sale item I find. I am really hoping I am able to save. I think I am going to start a spreadsheet to see how much I saved by cutting the coupons and see if it really is making a difference, I have my suspicion it will save me tons.


So excited!

Stay regular

Today I chose my resolution to be keeping a regular gym schedule. I started my women on weights class at 7am And even though it was early I really learned a lot. I am super excited to have this weight class and my spinning class on other days. I really think it will help me obtain my goal of getting into shape. I really have let myself go and it is time to take control again of my physical health.

I am also really happy to be doing this with a friend and partner that I know wnt let me slack. Here is to staying regular!

Put my face on!

My resolution for today is to wake up and put my face on in the morning.  I love that expression "put my face on", I am pretty sure my Nana use to say it and that is where I got the idea from but it basically means not leaving the house with out make-up.  Now I am not going to resolute that I will wear make up everyday, that is part of the plan, but more importantly I will be leaving the house looking my best.  I have noticed that once I get comfortable in my surroundings I stop trying to look presentable.  I wear my hair in a pony tail, put my bangs back in a clip and maybe wash my face.  WELL NO MORE!!! I have decided to now make sure everyday I wash my face, put on make up (nothing crazy like MIMI from friends) and at least brush my hair.  I notice that when I put forth the effort I actually feel better about myself and the way I look. 

This will be a tough resolution for me mostly because it will require me to get up earlier but I am okay with that because starting tomorrow I will be getting up at 6:45 to do women and weights work out class.  I think this will be a resolution I will stick with!

Cheers!

Opps, resolution for Sunday is to not let my head hit the pillow till all of my chorese are completed

So, for my three fans that actually read my blog I am sure you noticed I missed a blog yesterday!!! I truly had my resolution all planned out but instead decided to watch some Disney in my comfy bed with my chubby pooch instead.  I laid in my bed at 7:00pm and woke up this morning at 8:00am refreshed but bewildered by my LARGE amount of sleep!

I was so ashamed of myself.  I promised that I would write a blog everyday for the entire year of 2011 and only 9 days in I fall asleep before completing that task.  I also did not do my dishes from dinner or fold my laundry.  I was such a slacker last night.  So I have decided that my resolution for yesterday that I had planned will wait and I now resolved to not let my pretty little head hit that wonderful comfortable pillow until my chores are finished.  Meaning tonight I will make sure my blog is written, do my dishes, put my laundry away and take out the trash.  I sure do hope I am forgiven by the resolution fairy for missing a day, but I am sure it will be okay.  I can miss once but no more!!  BTW, I will be writing another blog for today, I still want 365 blogs, even if two are on the same day!!!!

Sing louder

Today's resolution is to sing louder and maybe prouder! I plan to sing louder in the car, the shower, church choir and maybe even in my office.

Why is this my resolution you may ask? Well today while watching Dream Girls, one of my favorite movies and musicals I was singing along and realized I am my most happiest when I am singing music. I think music is my happy outlet and I really think it is time I express my true happiness even if it doesn't sound like beyonce or Jennifer Hudson! I have decided to even think about singing a solo in the church choir, well see, most of those who know me know that I hate singing alone unless I am drunk and the words are on the screen.

Luckily this resolution comes at a perfect time because tomorrow I get to sing at church and work in a my office afterwards.

So here's to my lalalalalalalala-ing my way to happier times!

Make a positive from a negative

Today I had a very rough morning. I got a phone call from a parent at my apartment causing me to not make it to breakfast And than took a noise dive in my office. Needless to say I was livid and just in a crappy mood. I even broke my resolution from the day before and cursed very loudly. So on my way to lunch with my RAs, which I never made it too, I stopped into an office to talk to a friend, telling her all about my day and she reminded me to make my negatives positive, which is what I have decided to do.

I am usually a very positive person but mostly it is about bigger picture items, not small incidents like falling on my face or missing meals. Therefore, I will now start to make positives out of anything that gets me down. Instead if waking up trying to make myself, as my friend Laffin would refer to it, in somewhat human state; I will instead wake up as a human ready to start the day. That doesn't mean that I am going to wake up and birds and deers are going to come threw my window, but I do think waking up with a smile can't be too bad.

So here is to happy mornings before my herbal tea, and to venting about my fortunes not misfortunes.

Ps: We finally got our ipads through work and I am so ferekisngiciski happy.....if you don't know what is you may want to read last nights blog. Oh and this blog was type via iPad. Holla!

Watching my potty mouth!

 *Public Service Announcement: This blog will contain really bad language and cursing will ensue!!!!!

Today after saying SON of a BITCH for the 15th time I realized I need to watch my big ole potty mouth.

I feel like by watching the foul language that comes out of my pretty little lips I will not only be more lady like *which will please my mother* but I will also deplete a habit that has gotten very out of hand.  Just the other day I was talking to a friend and am pretty sure I used the f-word, and i don't mean fart, like seven times in one conversation.  Not to mention my favorite song of 2010 is F*ck You by Ceelo Green, which causes me to curse at least 10 times just by singing along.  I must stop this curse of cursing.


SO I have decided to replace my favorite curse words with other beautiful words and sayings. For my favorite saying "Son of a bitch" I have decided to take a lead from Buddy the Elf and say "Son of a NUTCRACKER".  For my second favorite word SHIT i have decided to say OH SNAP and for my all time favorite curse F*CK i have decided to say ferglicktinstienski....

I am so fucking excited, oh shit I said fuck, oh fuck I said shit, SON OF A BITCH I am NOT doing well at this!

Help out a friend!

Today's resolution is to Help out a Friend!

 This afternoon I was sitting in my office working away and one of my coworkers (and fantastic friend) came rushing in asking me to change into scruffy clothes and meet them at their building.  There was a huge flood on the first floor of the building and they need to not only take care of the flood but also move all of the student's wet belongings.  At first I was hesitate because I HATE being wet in clothes, but after two seconds of consideration I dashed to my apartment, kissed the pooch, changed and head off to the water works. 

When I arrived to Whitehurst Hall, I realized two very important things.  A. I really NEED rainboots and B. this was no ordinary flood, it was the second coming of Noah.  So after watching the water spew from the ceiling and comforting my good friend that it will be okay, we got to work.  I collected students possessions with limited judging and worked like the busy bee I am, only getting grossed out here or there!  I swear this one student had about 100 socks under his bed and 50 wash clothes, which my imagination would not let me forget!  I know what boys do with socks and wash clothes (*shutters* eww).  However, after an hour and some change of hard work  the facilities staff, my coworkers and myself deflooded the floor and in some rooms cleaned out the trash. I was tired, I was wet but I was appreciated. 

It felt good to know that my efforts were not ignored, but more importantly it felt great to feel appreciated and to know that if the same situation happened in my building my dear friend and coworker would be there for me, helping me lug out containers full of old steal beer bottles or porn, just as I was for him. 

I survived the Whiterhurst FLOOD (part two), it was a floody mess, but all and all I know I helped out a friend and that friend is a true buddy and pal!

Make the calls

I decided that my resolution for today is to take care of all of my phone business when I think of them and not put them off until the last minute.  Therefore, today I called my loan company, the bank and a store to see if they had something I wanted.  I usually really don't like making phone calls, but have noticed that I get my questions answered more accurately and to my understanding by talking to a human.  I saved myself tons of money today by just making sure the loan company received and processed my information.  I am sure that this is something I could do with many other things.  So even if I hate talking on the phone, I have learned that it is the easier way to solving my issues. 

I also think this resolution will help me when it comes to asking for what I want and doing what I can to achieve my goal.  I wanted to lower my loans so I called and worked something out, I am looking to change my auto insurance and plan on calling and working on that tomorrow (it is too late tonight).

I am really happy with this resolution!

Putting things in the proper place!

I have decided that today's resolution is to put things back in the proper place after using.  I cleaned my entire apartment today after my long twelve hour drive.  I put away all Christmas decorations and hung up the picture frames I got for Christmas from my mom.  I organized my spare room so it no longer looked like a bomb shelter after the bomb and worked on making my kitchen better for making meals.  After I completed all of my cleaning and organizing I looked around and was really pleased with all of the hard work I accomplished, especially only on 5 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours!  I than decided that this hard work can only be rewarded with my efforts to keep myself organized and clean.


I have decided that after I use something, whether it is the leash for the dog, my keys, or clothes I will immediately put them back where they belong instead of placing them on the table, the bed or my favorite place the floor.  I have also decided that when I come in the door for somewhere I will also make sure I immediately put whatever I have with me away.  I have created a really bad habit of putting things on my kitchen table and not moving it from there until I have gone crazy and must clean. 

I know that this resolution will allow me to keep my apartment cleaner and organized. I also feel that it will help me with keeping the dog out of things.  I have noticed lately that he has been getting into the trash and other things recently, so hopefully this will keep him out of things and out of trouble, because I sure do hate yelling at his adorable little face!!

Thinking before speaking

Today's resolution is to think before I speak.  I have noticed lately that I have been saying things that are either really rude or really silly and if I just thought before I let those words leave my mouth I would feel better.  I also think that by reviewing my thoughts before making them words will also allow me to slow down my speach and help with my stuttering. 

Earticles suggest that in order to improve our communication we must first acknowledge our mood and emotions, as they effect our communications skills.  I think this is a really important suggestion because I have noticed that if I have something on my mind or if I am angry about something I let those communications go towards someone else.  The article also suggests processing our words and making sure we are using them in the correct contexts.  This is something I really struggle with and I think that by processing my thoughts before speaking will allow me to actually use my words correctly. 

I know this will be a tough task but I am looking forward to the positive results I KNOW will come!!!


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Living 2011 with no regrets!

I have lots of regrets from 2010.  There were many different things  I did or didn't do and now regret.  Some of these regrets have hurt relationships and the people I love, and I am sorry for that, but most of my regrets have hurt me.  I let things hold me back from believing in myself but really I did not allow myself to accept my actions and just move past the situation.  I now accept that friendships fade, waters sometimes retains and it's okay if I cheat on my diet every now in then, as long as I am still being true to my God and myself.    

I have decided that in 2011 I will NO LONGER live with regrets.  I will make decisions and accept the results, GOOD or BAD!!!  I will ask for what I want and say no if I do not want to do something.  I am ready for this resolution but I know it will be a hard one.  I am going to have to work at not getting on myself about some things but learning and moving past the situation. I know this will take practice, especially if my actions create a negative result but in a year from now I want to welcome in 2012 saying I lived 2011 (a year that I love because 11 is one of my favorite numbers) to its fullest potential and have NO REGRETS!!!!